note: this blogpost was written a long time ago (almost a week..it's 24 days now since Alaa was arrested) but it is my fault not to publish it directly..I'm having trouble doing things on time, so I think Alaa's feelings about getting out in a few days has changed, especially after what happened to Sharkawy...Manal
It's been 17 days already and I still find it difficult to write about jail.
Now that i'm confident I'll be out in a few days I don't feel that bad. but still I heard and read many tales of prison. On the surface it wasn't as bad as I expected it to be, but on the other hand it doesn't feel like the transformative experience it is told to be.
It didn't make me stronger, it didn't make me believe more in "the cause". I still fail to see myself as an activist let alone a freedom fighter or a monadel.
When I'm out I'll have many stories to tell, I'll have gained some fame and have the power to use my short jail term as a weapon in political discussions (لما كنت فى المعتقل) but I doubt anything else would change.
It wasn't exactly a total waste of time. I got to bond with Sharkawy, I got to know Fadi and Ahmed Maher and to know Droubi better. I'm sure these friendships could have evolved outside but still sharing a cell was a unique experience, besides prison brought out the best in Sharkawy, I doubt I would have had the chance to see his sensible, responsible side otherwise.
There is also facing death with Droubi but I guess that's not such a unique thing the world is full of diabetics.
How can one explain jail, it's a bizarre place that belongs to a weird technological age where Tvs were invented but chairs weren't, where cats look like prisoners and where guilty serial killers are more courteous than innocent bankers.
Prison is fucking boring and I can't wait to be out.